Wednesday, January 16, 2013

I need a break. I'm at the point where I want to scream at his father just because he left me with the sole responsibility of doing it on my own. I want to cry because its the same thing my mother said. She told me that it wasn't my fault my father wasn't around and that she's sorry that she is all I have.

Now she's gone, and I don't have either of my parents to run to and I'm raising a baby by myself  - and one day I'll have to say the same words that she had to tell me.

I just want to tell him... "How DARE you. How dare you leave me alone with a child to raise by myself. How dare you sit back as I stumble and fuck up everything. How DARE you make him suffer just like I did all because you THINK that it's not yours. How DARE you make me suffer because he looks I-FUCKING-DENTICAL to you."

Okay, so after spontaneous breakdown in tears, I'm still angry and frustrated and sad.. so very sad..

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