Dear Journal,
I'm sitting atop my bed thinking about my options over the next couple of days before I get paid again. One option is that I'm going to have to get my phone, whether I like it or not. The longer I wait, the longer the 3 years it's going to take to get out of the contract. Work is going surprisingly well considering the circumstances in which the job of sales and telemarketing actually entails. My english is also improving. Which I am very excited about as well. On monday, I want to be able to go up to the college, or at least call and figure out what my options are in regards to taking my Mature Students Test, just because I'm really tired of taking the same course over and over and over again and not being able to get past the halfway point before I end up having to drop it because it doesn't fit nicely in my work schedule. At work, I got in trouble a few times because there were times in which I had to call in to work because I just wasn't feeling up to it, or feeling well for that matter, at which point, if I had the internet, I would have been able to log on the school website that I use and finish some assignments in time to actually graduate. But I guess that's not happening anytime soon. I want to call in to Bell or Cogeco or something to see what my options as far as high-speed internet and basic cable are, but I don't think I need the cable. I just want the internet. At least with that, I can complete everything I need to complete, and send in what I need to send in, and that way, it's sort of a win-win situation for everything. And then when I'm done completing the things I need completed, I can at least feel comfortable in the fact that I'm taking responsibility in my responsibilities and I don't feel trapped without something to go on.
I believe this might have been more of a rant than a journal post, but it gives me something to do. My hands feel better knowing that I can type on a computer about anything I really want instead of always filling out order forms for cell phones and writing down simple, down to the point sentences about what I talked about over the phone with a customer about a phone and plan and whatnot. Don't get me wrong, I like being able to do that because at least it gives me a chance to type on a computer, but I don't like it in a way because there isn't a chance to have me rant about anything and everything - except when I pull up notepad, but even then if I stumble across a good idea it doesn't let me save it, and it's not like I can write it down and take it home with me. That would just be a bad idea all in itself.
I just had a thought - journaling is kind of like talking to yourself, because the words you type are running in your head, giving you a chance to type them all down, but it seems like you're having a conversation - however immature it may be - with yourself. Except, the words end up on 'paper'. I guess that was my little rant for now.
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