April 12, 2011

Hey bloggers,
I know it's been a while since I wrote anything even remotely resembling a post. I haven't been online to be able to do so. I'm not even online as I'm writing this but I'm hoping by my birthday I'll be online once again.
Work has left me exhausted and my sleep patterns have been so out of balance that I didn't even know just how much life could have changed for me. It's still as hard as it's been, but it's almost like an easy change.
As for anything remotely resembling a love life, that's more complicated than ever. I have prospects, but I don't have anyone that I'm currently seeing. Every once in a while I make plans with some people, but they always end up cancelled or they just never happen. It's a little depressing, mostly because it just means that it's basically impossible for me to be able to get a date.
As for home situations, even that's a little more complicated than it should have been. Because of me getting a job, I had to sacrifice my place to live. As of yet, I have no current accomodations of my own and this couch-hopping gig is getting a little annoying. Recently, my little sister decided that she was tired of taking care of my mother. Which has left her to move out and live with her father on the other side of town. She's decided to leave at the end of the month - nothing short of a week after my birthday. It seems I will resume her duties as primary caregiver while still maintaining my job and trying to make sense of my school work.
Which kind of reminds me, since I am staying up all night because I cannot sleep anyway, I might as well say that it's been over 2 weeks since school has started and I have yet to start my course. I have to go in this morning and see if I can stay the morning to at least get a good start on the assignments before I get dropped out of the class. I need this, particularily because it's the very last high school credit I need before I can finally graduate and start college. Oh, what a fun experience that will be! Whenever I get to experience that, I suppose.
As of yet, I don't even know what I want to do in college. I don't know what my options are and I don't know what I can afford. All I do know is that I want to have all the experiences and full advantages of being a college kid. Even all the pressures. I don't mind the pressures. I want dead-lines and some structure and balance in my life.