Don't tell me if I'm dying, 'cause I don't wanna know..

Morning.

If you are reading this... thanks.

I was told to stay off my feet. I'm not listening to them. Either I'm stubborn or stupid, or something. Maybe both. They still hurt. And so does my head.

I am having trouble sleeping once again. Bit by bit, my "friends" are signing off of IMs, and I feel lonely. Lonely because I'm alone. In a dark room, with no one to talk to.
I hate these moods. The ones where I feel like I need someone around to feel okay.
The ones where I can't be the independent, on-her-own girl.
Suddenly, I need someone around, to have and to hold. (Pardon the wedding saying)

But in all seriousness, I don't like this mood. And I might need a hug :(

...

I have been looking for an apartment or a room to rent for cheap, because I'm tired of living off my mother.. and quite frankly, I'm tired of my sister complaining every damn day about god knows what.. oh the joys of teenage hormones..
I sent the girl an email to set up a meeting for wednesday somewhere around 4. Here's hoping she sends me the address, and I'm not stuck guessing which house it is on the pretty long street. I haven't even seen the room yet. I'm really excited to see it though, and I'm hoping that they take a liking to me, and I can take the room. It's absolutely perfect for me. Well.. according to the pictures anyway. She said she needed someone ASAP, and I think I'm that person.

Oh crap. I was supposed to buy milk after I came back from Sarah's.. except I ended up staying over, and I still have the money for the milk.. I have to pick some up before I get back to my mom's.. I hope she's not pissed off at me, that would suck. Tremendously. Or, however you spell it.

My schedule is absolutely packed for this week.
Monday(Today): Hanging out with Sarah.
Tuesday: Mall, getting milk & Vampires Suck with Katelyn
Wednesday: @ 4 pm - Room viewing? Maybe? If she gets back to my e-mail..
Thursday: Katelyn's ultrasound @ 1:30
Friday: Undecided.

I don't know what I'm doing Friday. Most likely, going to visit Sarah again. We hang out a lot.







If you could only see the way I love you, maybe you'd understand.
If you could only see how blue, my eyes get when I say I love you.
You say you know, but you don't.