When you get into a relationship, you're supposed to be happy, right?
But tonight I'm not happy. The night before he left, he told me that he cheated on me when we dated when I was 18 because I didn't put out. He hesitated because he thought I was going to argue with him. I didn't argue, I laughed. And I laughed pretty hard. I think I was laughing because I was in shock.
Now, I just feel pathetic. I feel stupid for chasing him again. Now that I know he's cheated on me..
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I think I might have made a mistake.
You want to know what the worst thing is?
He texted me today that he had a long talk with his ex-girlfriend. He said that she was dolled up and that she looked like a cocktease. He also said that she looked good. That's another awful sign. I don't trust him. I feel like he's going to turn around and go back to her, even after all the crap she put him through.
But... what makes me think that she's going to go back with her is because she's beautiful. And she's skinny. But she's a psycho. And I don't know what to do.
How come I'm never good enough? He even told me to wear makeup, and when I did, he didn't even say anything. What am I supposed to do? Is it because he thinks that makeup doesn't fix me?
I'm so self-concious right now. I don't know what I'm going to do.
Drop him, and do it ASAP. All he's gonna do is drive you insane. It sounds like he's got no remorse for his actions, and no sense of honor. Let him go back to his slut, and you walk away saner and wiser.
ReplyDeleteUpdate: He did go back out with her. The night I left to go back to my hometown to visit with family and friends for the Christmas holidays. And you know what, I feel good. I don't care - that relationship is doomed anyway, and a part of me feels good knowing that he willingly is going into something that WILL crash and burn. I'm "doing me" and now I'm not afraid to show just how happy I really am. :3
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